Sometimes....i wish

There are sometimes,when i wish to find the ultimate goal of life,and there are times when i ask myself why am i alive,for what purpose am i alive;
Sometimes i wish to just escape from the harsh reality of life,the sickness of greediness,lust,forgery,religion-regional bias and all the other cobwebs of vies growing steadily like pollution filling it's contaminated air all around and engulfing me and everyone else in it.
Sometimes i wish i were blind then perhaps this world might have appeared as bright as rainbow of my imagination.Sometimes i wish i could just continue sleeping for the rest of my life and continue to have dreams free from nightmares.Sometimes i find nature,culture and habitat so beautifully breathtaking that i find myself completely deaf and mute and thinking nothing can ever beat this feeling.Sometimes i wish to eradicate all the boundaries in this world which demarcates which area belong to which country and thus avoid regionalism.Sometimes i wish, if i were given some legendary mythical powers then i would've eradicated all the politicians and the terror spreading groups in this world and thus prevent communal hate. Sometimes i wish i were a cloud then i would have just wandered aimlessly anywhere without bothering to answer anyone and be in a very relaxed mood all the times heeding nobody.Sometimes i wish i were derailed of all emotions and expressions which evoke sentiments,perhaps then i would not have been this vulnerable in life.sometimes i loath myself for being so crude and unrefined and sometimes i pity those around me for being so refined,that i wish i could find balance.Sometimes i wish to remain naive for the rest of my life ,then all the complexities of life will not bother me and i could continue to be optimistic always.Sometimes i wish to find what love is and how do i experience it.Sometimes i wish to enter the greatest black hole in life..death;for then the mystery of death will not remain mystery at all.
Sigh, Are these sanely thoughts of a common person or an extremely insane thoughts of a Mad Mental person?Sometimes i ponder on that too...sometimes..!