Dilemma

On a nicely warm day, i was alone in the house and facing a dilemma.But due to a certain turn events this dilemma was averted temporarily,actually power was off. So nothing else to do i ventured toward the veranda and started gazing at the surroundings.Strangely due to some reasons i felt somehow being one with the nature;understood every noises and voices the wind made blowing in gently.It was at this moment the chirping of two sparrows caught my attention and strangely enough i seemed to understand what their conversation was.And as i had nothing to do i named them with some ridiculous names i could think of.'Pradyumna' prady for short and 'Aadyunya' aadi for short.Here's a snippet of what prady was chirping to aadhi :-

Prady:"hey aadi,chuzze i think i am finally in love,but somehow there's a part of me which doesn't agree with it, it says its just a passe and it cannot be termed as love but somehow i do not feel like agreeing to it. But honestly is it love or is it not, i do not know, but do i care for her that i know ,i do.Will i long for her when she would choose some other sparrow other than me,i think i would not.As long as she is happy ,it will make me happy too in knowing that everything is fine with her.But what if she chooses me,truth fully will i be happy?,i think i would definitely be over the moon,but i will say no to her because deep down i know that i am an imperfect material eligible not be her life partner.I know its a bit confusing,but that's how i feel."

Hearing this Aadi asked:"That's a surprise! who is this hen sparrow and when did this happen?"

Prady:Bhavi, that's her name.It happened the day when we visited her nest.You were there too don't you remember?
Aadi:er Actually bro i was busy locating other chicks in that area. so apparently i was not paying attention.
Prady:hm figures...fine then,Not much of conversation took place between us,just a few pleasantries were exchanged that's all.But somehow it had a soothing effect on me.Seeing her, felt completely stumped for about half a sec.Like some bird with a big twig held in its legs had kicked me on my head.After this incident i met her again coincidentally the very next week.And i also came to find that she has an account on tweeter.After two days of constant worrying, i decided to steel my self and send her a small msg(tweet).And to my surprise i received one tweet from her too.After i started to tweet her only on special days only,cause on the other days i was at loss to how start a chirpy dialogue with her.

Aadi: Wow holy twerpy sparrow, prady i think you are in love at least theoretic ally that is so when are you making it practical? huh when?

Prady: Na ,i will not make it practical.I am afraid that something might go wrong.I mean surely its not like she will be single,she might have already one Cock sparrow as her boy friend for all i know/care.Then whats the point of meaninglessly making her aware of your feelings towards her.I know there's a possibility of liking there,and i am happy with knowing that it is there,i do not want it to be ruined.Its just that i know am not worth having her as my better half.And i am not self pitying myself.But why do i think i am not good enough ,i do not know its like an unexplained but painfully obvious feeling i have that tells me not to venture towards certain heart directions.And also i do not want anything bad happen to her that's all.

Aadi :You know what you are deluding yourself with these cock bull shit theory of yours.I mean whats the point of having this feeling when you won't even disclose to her

Prady :Exactly ,that's what precisely i am deciding on,Whether to keep this feeling alive or to keep it hidden and buried for the rest of my life.
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Just then power came on and from some distance a siren was heard upon which the two sparrow took flight ending their conversation.While i came inside my room perplexed at hearing these thoughts of a tiny bird.I wished for that bird saneness and may it always have a good life.And then pondered over whether to play fifa 09 or study ADBMS ,well this was my aforementioned dilemma.